Lightness and Weight

"I never knew I can be this easily influenced. And I’ve just actually experienced the power of suggestion firsthand. I can tell you that it definitely works. I also realize what a shame it is that sometimes you only start to appreciate something when it’s already too late."

That was the beginning of an entry that i was going to publish back in May, but never came around to. What was i talking about? More or less the best thing that is going on in my life right now. That entry was going to be a lament, bt i guess i don't need that now :>

So it wasn't a suggestion, that was experience talking, they noticed it because they have seen or been in so many similar situations, and clueless as i was, i have to give it to them. They hit bull's eye, and they will probably never know that they did.

I don't know where this is going, if it's going anywhere at all.....but while it lasts, i will embrace it. Because it feels right at this moment in time. However, I will tread cautiously, so as not to get my fragile heart trampled all over. I will keep my head above water, and my feet on the ground. Lightness and weight....reminds me of Milan Kundera's brilliant novel (which i will hopefully be talking about in here some time soon). The ambiguous opposition of all oppositions.

On a lighter note (pun intended), will be having a BBQ (yet another!) by the beach tommorrow with the gang. Should be really fun, but mind will probably be elsewhere like it's perpetually been lately! It's so silly.