i just cannot stand being helpless like this, so powerless over something. there is this dread that spreads like wildfire. it starts from the centre, from the pit of my stomach and like volcanic lava seeps slowly but surely into my limbs, leaving them weak and cold; but the worse is when it finds its way into my chest, where my living, beating cardia would be, squeezing it mercilessly, so excruciating to the core of my being.
i'm just an ordinary girl, i have the flaws and weaknesses of a human being. fear, insecurity, jealousy, resentment, mistrust.
but i do try. in a blameless situation as this might become, i try to be strong.
i can't help myself. love has no reasons.