Am at work now, well technically. It's lunchtime. We have just discharged our last patient ( to Ema's annoyance, should she know about it). It'll be just about five days before my 2 week holiday starts. I'm flying home, and i can barely contain my excitement. It's been almost a year since i've been back, and it is about time to re-fuel. i need the malaysian air, humidity and all, at least for a while. Sometimes, being home kind of put things into perspective. i need that now, with all these confusion that's been going on. i've been kind of going about my days in sort of a daze lately... it feels like everything is a question mark. i just dread the thought actually sitting down, and really think things out, find answers and make decisions. one might say that i'm too scared to face reality. chickenshit. hehe. oh well. others might say i'm unthankful. i've a wellpaying, somewhat distinguished job, a caring family, a great, loving boyfriend and a bunch of absolutely lovely, there-for-me friends. and yet i'm still disheartened. i still wonder if i haven't hit bullseye; haven't found my true calling....i don't know. well who says life is straightforward?
current playlist: so beautiful - darren hayes
hung up - madonna
kaiser chiefs
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